You probably guess, from this post's title, that we weathered this storm, just like we weathered all the others before. But I have to say, this one was probably the worse yet. It's a bit hard to write about it. I was really, really scared I had lost him and I am still reeling from it all. He was so very angry. He said he wasn't, but it sure felt like anger on this end. He slept on the couch for days. At first, I didn't understand what was really frustrating him, what was making him avoid me and act so cold. When I wrote my post last week, I didn't understand yet. I was so focused on MY upset feelings, and it shows in what I wrote. Then it finally sank in. He's not happy with the way things are. Not happy at all. He must have let it all bottle up for a good long while because it was quite the explosion! Something in the comments I received from my last post made me start looking at things from another perspective, someone asking if I was tending to his needs. It made me think about how he must be feeling. It's all a big vicious circle, really. And I believe that at the basis of it is my insecurity. Fear. If your girlfriend constantly doubted you love her, how would it make you feel? Not only that, I became the girlfriend that nags. It didn't feel like nagging on my end, I was reacting to what I was feeling, but yeah, I can see how it must have been for him. He says I was staying with him not for him, but for who I believed he could become. Doesn't everybody know you shouldn't try to change your mate? I didn't realize I was doing it. I just felt upset and I wanted something done about it! I finally realized that the only one who could do something about it is me. Now before you all start telling me how one-sided this is and how it can't all be my fault... I know. But I can't just blame it all on him. Too easy. It's sort of what I was doing, you see? Besides, I only have control over myself, therefore I will concentrate on working on my issues. I have to trust that he will take care of his own. It'll take some work, obviously. And I have to admit I have absolutely no idea how to go about it. I think the first step is to decide to be with him for who he is. Accept and appreciate him completely. He will not become more affectionate, more understanding, more curious about my feelings, or more anything else. Well, he might, but on his own terms. I cannot make him. So I have to stop looking for more and start appreciating what he has to give, when he has it to give. Period. If it turns out it's not enough, then I leave. That said, I think it IS enough. I just kept looking for more because I was afraid he didn't care or something. It is my opinion that when I stop doubting and fearing, I will be happier. BT will be happier. We will communicate better, feel closer, more connected, there will be more affection, more sex... Fix the problems at the very basis and the rest should follow. And there you have it, an entirely too personal blog post. But writing things down helps me think them through and I have a hard time writing for no reason. BT, if you read this, I love you.

So BT and I aren't doing all that well. In fact, one of the last things he said to me was that he couldn't continue like this. "Not doing that well" might be an understatement. It happens every time I'm upset. Yesterday, it was because I started writing this blog post. It was a different post, then. It was going to be about how little sex we have, how it scares me. How I'm afraid that not doing any kink with him will make his interest drift away... I started writing about how I am afraid that the lack of sex is a symptom of our relationship being in trouble, or that he doesn't find me desirable. I wrote about three lines, then I ended up feeling so sad I couldn't hold back the tears. I didn't want to cry, I didn't want him to see me cry, but he did and asked me what was up. I didn't answer though, couldn't find it in me. If I did, we'd fight... And I felt so bad! How many times have I told him that the lack of sex, the lack of intimacy, is killing me? When I do, he says "Ok, we'll have more sex!" But then... nothing happens. Nothing. I feel like he is mocking me: "Yeah, it bothers you, but so what?" He just tells me we'll do more of it to shut me up, to humor me, but he doesn't care about how I feel so he does nothing. It's hard not to start thinking that way, when something important to you seems to just be ignored by your significant other, even after talking about it several times. I don't really know what's really going on in his head, but what I do know is that it really hurts me. It's not so much the sex as the connection it creates, the feeling of closeness. I need the intimacy and the affection to feel good in my relationship. When I finally got around to try and tell him, it turned horrible. He ended up admitting that he doesn't seem to know whether he loves me or not, he says he's been trying to figure that out. I was so upset, I wanted to know what I am to him, and in the end, I pushed too hard, he said he couldn't do it this way. I want answers now but he can't give them to me now. Then he was so angry. I didn't manage to get anything else out of him last night, he was just too angry. I admit that I don't really know why he was so angry. I mean, I know I pushed, I know I said mean, hurtful things to try and get a reaction out of him, because I can't take his seeming lack of emotions. But if I said I really understand why he's angry, I'd be lying. Now I'm home, he's not here, and I don't know if this is really the end or not. I don't know, because similar scenarios have happened before. We've said we should break up so many times... The worse part is, our day-to-day life together is great. We're very good at just doing things together. I mean, I love even grocery shopping, with him. But if I'm upset with him for any reason, it turns to hell. I am not sure if I ask too much or expect too much of him, or if he just lacks empathy. One thing is for sure, if I am sad or upset, he is often cold or angry and that, I simply cannot deal with. To me, it seems only natural that if I'm upset, I want him to take me in his arms and comfort me. But him, if he believes I'm upset with him, he cannot do it. And I can't help wondering, is it normal, that my boyfriend does not hug me when I cry? I guess that fear is my worst enemy here. His lack of reaction makes me fear that he doesn't care. I often fear that he doesn't love me, or that I am more engaged in this relationship than he is. Fear is what makes me freak out at him, trying to get something, anything, out of him. Fear is what keeps me from being able to talk with him and understand what's happening.  Fear makes me upset, and as long as I'm upset, it's no use trying to reason with me. He is reason, so we do not speak the same language. I can't help but feel that if he took care of my feelings, then we could talk reasonably... I hope I am not making him sound like the bad guy. It's not my goal, especially not on a blog that I know he might read, and even if he didn't know the blog even existed. I guess I just needed to get some of it out of my system. I want to write him, but I'm not sure what to write yet. I don't know if this can be fixed, and I don't know yet if I even want to, I feel so hurt and discouraged. And oh, yeah. I am totally PMS-ing. Perhaps the Bene Gesserit had it wrong: fear is not the mind-killer, PMS is the relationship-killer.

When it comes to dealing with emotions, it seems like BT and I are two opposite extremes. My emotions can get pretty intense and what I feel comes out in words almost instantly. BT keeps it to himself, he'll hole up to think things through and then never mentions any of his conclusions. Sometimes I realize something I said hurt his feelings because 2 weeks later, he'll mention my comment offhandedly. That usually means it struck a sensitive chord. It's all classic Mars vs Venus stuff, really. I've mentioned it before, several times I'm sure, how these differences also interfere with our sex life, more specifically with the kinky stuff. Hell, a quick search and I found that I talked about it as far back as a year ago, in a post called Kinky sex, emotions and stuff. A year later, some things are still the same, some things have evolved. For instance, when I said:

I don’t know how to go about it, and I’m afraid he’ll say no. So fear of rejection. Have I ever mentioned that insecurity and domination don’t really go together?

Yeah, that's still pretty true. I am still hesitant about how to bring things up, and I am still scared he'll say no. Last weekend, for example. When we showered together, I made him cum but he didn't return the favor. Later that day, he was upstairs and I was downstairs so I went to talk to him on MSN. I told him I was going for a nap and I was thinking of bringing my little bullet vibe with me. He said "Hmmm, lucky vibe!" I replied that it was HIS job, really. Was he coming for a nap? His response? No, because he wanted to go jogging. That... hurt. I mean, he couldn't postpone his running for half an hour, or just the few minutes he'd need to get me off? Humph. I think a year ago, even a few months ago, I would have made a pretty big deal out of it. In last year's post, I wrote:

What’s certainly not helping is the poor control I have over my emotions. I’ve mentioned this before: I feel, I react. When I feel something, it just overwhelms me and I can’t get over it. So if Boy Toy doesn’t seem interested in playing, for example, and it makes me feel unwanted, I get stuck on that feeling. Unfortunately, I have a hard time going deeper than that first emotion. It stops right there, there’s no further introspection.

I'm still quite reactive, but I am much better at letting go of things, I believe. Not always, but generally speaking, yes. Last weekend, after BT's rejection, I went downstairs for my nap. For a little while I alternated between crying and being angry. Then I took out the vibe and gave myself 3 or 4 orgasms. I felt much better. I told myself that he didn't HAVE to feel like it right then and there. I did mention my disappointment when we spoke later, but I didn't go on and on about it and it didn't turn into a huge fight. Phew! The next day, we talked some more. He told me that he's been hesitant about doing kinky stuff because of how emotions get mixed up in there. He's afraid that I use domination to get the emotional comfort I need. For example, if I find we're not spending enough time together, I might make him be my slave to fix that. I understand exactly where he's coming from; I'm afraid of the same thing. I admit I've found myself fighting this temptation in the past. But "fighting" is the key word here; no matter how tempting it might be, my instincts tell me I don't want to go down that path. BT voicing his opinion about it only proved that I was right. So, we know what not to do, but because I - we - am not sure how not to do it, it's making us both hesitant to venture back into kink. I guess that knowledge is progress, though. I have an idea or two. I talked to him about having rules again, and he said maybe I could give him a few to try out for a month or so. So I gotta think about that. Find something I'd like to try on him. Also, I can try to limit the kink to just sessions, rather than going into the more 24/7-ish D/s stuff. Speaking of trying things, I've been typing this wearing black thigh-high socks, boy-shorts and a tank top. I waited until BT was gone jogging to get changed. When he got back and noticed, he asked what was up with all the sexy stuff, and I told him it's just how I'm dressed. He's cooking supper right now, so I better go. We'll see how this works out.

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He was naked already. He knelt in front of me and went to work with his tongue. I kept my legs spread wide and held the back of his head with both my hands until I came hard.

I wore my new skirt to go out, that night. With panties. I had already gotten what I wanted..

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When he got back home, I sat him down and I asked him if he felt uncomfortable being locked up, given that we'd had a little fight. I pointed towards the key and told him I'd left it there and that he should get out if he felt it was best.

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Oh well, I tried..

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All that being said, we still do the regular sex thing. And I'm thinking the kinky stuff will come back once we've managed to figure things out a bit, but it should be better because I won't put so much pressure on myself. Anyway, I hope!.

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As an aside, we ARE working on that and I think we're slowly getting there. Acomplia usa, Yay.

Anyway, since it was on my mind, I brought it up with Boy Toy without really thinking first. I asked him what he thought of cuckolding, after telling him I wasn't fully satisfied with how often we have sex.., Buying Acomplia. Yeah, acomplia emea 2008, I know, way to go me.

Still, Sanofi aventis acomplia, he didn't reject the idea. Far from it. However, he was a bit dumbfounded at the notion that I'd be allowed to go elsewhere, but not him, acomplia online order. Buying Acomplia, It's true that it doesn't sound fair, and I've known from the start that he believes in open relationships. The first thing he said, in fact, when I asked "What do you think of cuckolding?" was, Purchase acomplia, "What, like an open relationship?" I explained that no, cuckolding meant that only the female partner has sex with others, while the male partner knows this and even encourages it. I encouraged him a bit, acomplia 56, tentatively saying that it'd be hot, and it fits in the Domme/sub paradigm. Seen that way, Acomplia rimonabant cheap online fedex, it seemed to appeal to him.

But then I realized it wasn't really a good idea. Not now, anyway, Buying Acomplia. We aren't on solid enough grounds, we aren't good enough yet at communicating. We'd have to talk about it quite a bit, acomplia diet pill, I'd say. And the thing is, if I'm not satisfied with our sex life, Acomplia approval fda, I don't think sleeping around is a good idea at all. I believe it should be an enhancement to our sexuality, not a replacement or fix. Buying Acomplia, Like I said, solid grounds... Otherwise, it would be too dangerous to our relationship, delivery overnight in guaranteed acomplia stock.

There's also the fact that I feel a little bad/guilty about it because of how unfair it might seen, especially knowing that Boy Toy believes in *open* relationships. Yet fair or not, Has anyone tried acomplia,   I know for a fact that I couldn't bear with the idea of him sleeping with someone else. I'm wayy too insecure for that. I have issues with whether he likes hanging out with his friends more than with me, so imagine if he slept around, Buying Acomplia. Obviously not a good idea. Not now, anyway, where can i buy acomplia. We have a few kinks to work out (excuse the pun), first.

Despite this, Sanofi acomplia, I do find the idea really hot and it is not impossible at all that we explore it in the future. Buying Acomplia, I've already kissed another man, right in front of Boy Toy to boot. He didn't mind at all :D

What's interesting is that according to Wikipedia, there is a biological origin for the fetish of cuckolding:

"The excitement and stimulation of the cuckolding fetish emerges from the biology of sexuality and the effects of sexual arousal on the brain. When a male believes that his female mate may have been sexual with another male, the male mate is prompted by biological urges to copulate with the female, acomplia pills, in an effort to "compete" with the other males' sperm. The effects of sperm competition are well documented. Further, Generic acomplia, when initiating sex, the male mate thrusts harder, deeper and longer, in efforts to remove the sperm of the other male, and is biologically driven to have sex multiple times, key bestellen acomplia kaufen. While he may be unable to have sex more than once under usual circumstances, the cuckolded male is prone to repeated sexual efforts, Buying Acomplia. Meanwhile, the wife enjoys greater sexual stimulation, first by her other male lover and second by her cuckolded husband. Prescribed weight loss drugs acomplia, In addition, the wife enjoys the neurochemical "highs" triggered by entering into a romantic or physical relationship with another lover. These highs include the effects of oxytocin and other neurochemicals which trigger excitement, euphoria and other feelings common to the beginnings of romantic relationships. These neurochemicals change over time, acomplia fda, and as a relationship persists, with neurochemicals changing to ones that promote bonding, planning and nurturing. Buying Acomplia, When a wife takes a new lover, she triggers the neurochemicals of a new relationship, bringing home excitement to her husband."

How fascinating is that. Acomplia in us, The good news for Boy Toy and I in all this is that we got to talk about our sex life and we decided we will make more efforts to bring it back to life, so to speak. The other good news is that while talking about this, he started going on about how "just sex" isn't that interesting to him, that he likes kinky stuff, acomplia packet insert, etc., which surprised me in a way because of the break from kink he had asked for... When I reminded him of this, Weight loss acomplia, he said that he thought he had told me he was ready to start again. No, he hadn't, but I'm happy to know it now  *evil grin*

What's more, we now have something new to fantasize about. In fact, last night I dreamed I was meeting another man during my lunch hour, for sex, Buying Acomplia. The details are blurry, but I remember getting into the restaurant and realizing there were all these people I know. He finally showed up and sat with me, and the people sitting behind him were a friend of mine and... an ex of his. So we left to find a hotel, and that's about as much as I remember..

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What's there to say. This is so completely opposite to anything I believe in, I don't even know where to begin, Order Adipex Without A Prescription. Imagine the poor little innocent girl (because I think you have to be a poor little innocent girl to believe any of this crap) finally getting her guy, if this even "works". What then. Once she's got him where she wants and they are maried, she can finally be herself, right. I bet that'd be a happy mariage. Order Adipex Without A Prescription, Actually, it's probably a joke. I hope it is. It was on wikiHow and it looks like the articles can be edited by anyone. It ends with some tips and warnings:

Tips

• Don't be clingy. Don't be all lovey-dovey either.


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• Don't nag. Don't bitch. Be nice. Who want's to marry someone that isn't nice?


• Don't dress up loads for him, but don't turn up anywhere with greasy hair & hairy armpits.


• Don't use his razors, hair gel, cosmetics etc. You can do annoying things like that after you're married.


• Have fun & have a sense of humour. No-one wants to marry a square.

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• It's advisable not to try this with someone you've been seeing for less than 6 months.


• Don't expect him to succumb right away. Be patient but know where to draw the line.


• Don't let him take you for granted & don't be a doormat. If this seems to be happening break things right off.


• Don't settle down with this guy if you think there's any chance he could be dishonest or unfaithful.


• Be sure you want to marry him.


• This might backfire and he might leave.

The last warning seems particularly useful..

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