I enjoyed giving you a peek into mine and Boy Toy's life so much, last week, that this week I decided to show you more pictures from the same series. They were very fun to take, too. Boy Toy's a very good sport when it comes to that sort of thing. ;) Oh and don't forget that as usual, you should click. Happy HNT!

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We were hanging out with a couple of girlfriends; they had stopped by for a few drinks on their way to the club. While A was getting ready in the washroom, Boy Toy, M2 and I chatted in the kitchen. In the course of our idle talk, M2 mentioned she might come out with us the next day, without her boyfriend M. We encouraged her. "Yes, come, you'll have fun with us, you'll see! Who needs M!?" We were mock-serious, of course. Oh, we wanted her to come along, true, but we've got nothing against her boyfriend, who's a good friend of mine. Just a little harmless teasing. But she answered "It COULD be good, being able to have fun and not constantly watch out after him to make sure he isn't doing anything with other girls..." M and M2 are supposedly an open couple. At least, that's what M tells me, that his girlfriend is OK with that kind of stuff. I'm really not aware of any more details than that and frankly, I don't want to know. It's their business. And I would have nothing against it, except for this feeling that maybe M2 isn't as happy as she tells her boyfriend about sharing him. Her comment that night only confirms my feeling. It's still none of my business, but it saddens me a little. So I told her: "You know, there's a way you wouldn't ever worry about such things..." I saw Boy Toy blush across the table. Her interest now piqued, I found myself unable to utter the words. Despite knowing that my friends enjoy kink, suggesting they use a chastity device pretty much amounts to telling them Boy Toy and I are into it ourselves. I looked at Boy Toy and said "Why don't you tell her?" He turned towards her, said "Hey, I was surprised seeing you without M the other day!" I laughed at his abrupt change of subject and left him to fumble his way out of it. But the feeling stayed with me after: I wished I had told her. The next day, M2 came along with her boyfriend. Apparently he had changed his mind about going out. No matter, every time I looked at M2, I felt the urge to tell her. I felt sure she would really, really enjoy chastity play. So I hung around her, trying to gather the guts to bring it up. At one point during the evening, I was sitting next to M2 who was talking with her boyfriend when our friend C walked by. He's brought up chastity cages before, with Boy Toy and I trying to keep a straight face.  "Psssst! Come here!" I told him. "I need help! I want to tell M2 about chastity devices... I think she'd enjoy them!" C agreed with me: "She says she wishes M was more submissive", he revealed. "Let's call her over." And he did. Now there was no way out, I had to tell her. If I didn't, C would anyway. So I jumped in: "I wanted to tell you about chastity cages... I think you'd enjoy that kind of play." To my surprise, she answered something like "Yeah, I know. M mentioned such things and would like us to try." Ah, so she already knew about the things... That made it easier. Still embarrassing, but easier.  We talked about it a bit more and I told her she definitely should surf around and read blogs about it to see just how hot chastity is. I'm convinced she'd love it, and I strongly encouraged her to give it a shot. It would totally bring out the sub in M, who is something of a switch though his girlfriend doesn't want to bottom. I told M2 how she'd never worry if M was under lock... She said "So when I work night shifts, I could simply lock him up until I'm back?" That's right, you got it. And as a bonus, he'll want to serve and please you. When we were done with our little conversation, I turned towards C and told him "The seed is planted." And then, as an afterthought: "By the way, if I know so much about chastity devices, it's from reading about them online." I'm sure he believed me. Today, when I got back home, I emailed M2 the link to the CB6000. My work was done. I've given her information and a little nudge of encouragement, the rest is up to her. We'll see what she does with it... That is, if she ever tells me. It's not an easy thing to share.

Last week, I mentioned how I had Boy Toy wear a locked collar while our friends were there. None of them so much as whispered a word about it, and I thought they simply hadn't noticed. After all, it could have been a decorative collar, the padlock was hidden under his shirt. Turns out that my assumption about our friends not noticing was wrong. Yesterday, Boy Toy told me that our friend M asked about it, a couple of days ago. M is a kinky boy and he knows that Boy Toy and I are pretty kinky too. Well, the same applies to several friends, really. While we don't usually discuss particulars (especially Boy Toy and I), we ARE a naughty bunch and everybody knows it. So two days ago, M asked Boy Toy if he had been wearing the chain-harness that night. Such a question shouldn't come as too much of a shock to us, because M knows about the harness. When we made the thing, I told M about it. I showed him the drawing of my design, mainly because at the time, we were wondering about making harnesses for others. We sort of thought we'd make one for him, so I talked to him about it. I laughed delightedly when Boy Toy reported this conversation! I felt thrilled that we had been "discovered" at our little game. In my opinion, this adds a little humiliation for Boy Toy into the mix, and as long as it's just a little humiliating, it's actually hot. And M is honestly curious, in a respectful and innocent way. He's very much into kink himself. Boy Toy told me it didn't bother him that M would know such things about us, which I think is pretty cool. Means I can discuss a little more openly with my friend, and maybe even someday act upon my fantasy of having Boy Toy bound naked while our friends and I are there, having fun! It's an interesting dynamic we have with our friends.

Well, 2008 is already drawing to an end and naturally, we take a look back at the year that has just passed. In keeping with this, Osbasso has suggested that for this very last HNT of the year, we pick what we think is our favorite HNT picture that we've posted. This was much harder than I thought it'd be. And I've only had my blog for about half the year! When I post pictures for HNT, it's because I like them and so it's difficult to choose which I think is best. That being said, this one and this one (and their click-throughs) are certainly among my personal favorites.  However, I think that a HNT post is more than just the image, so I have picked my favorite not only for the picture, but also for what it actually means to me. While I do find the shot fun and interesting, what it represents is what is most dear to me: it was a glimpse into Boy Toy and I's intimacy, a moment of playful exposure captured and shared. Hope you enjoy it as much as Boy Toy and I did!

Exposure (HNT)

It's thrilling to expose and be exposed. Boy Toy and I play at it a lot. When heading over to his place, I'll tell him to wait for me naked. Exposed. Sometimes, I'll grab a camera and take pictures of him when he's in this most vulnerable of positions. Earlier tonight, we were talking about pushing limits. I paraphrased what maymay wrote recently:

My goal was the same as hers: to push limits. We push each other, we always have, and it’s part of what keeps us moving forward together. Though the willingness to push a bottom’s limits is almost a prerequisite to advertise yourself as a top or a dominant, very rarely does anyone seem to recognize the value of pushing a top’s limits as a bottom, and I think that is a grave oversight for all involved. Often, people expect—sometimes even demand—that bottoms and submissives be entirely passive partners in sex and kink, but I think this is wrong.

With that in mind, I told Boy Toy I'd like to hear suggestions of things HE would like to try. And it's funny, his first suggestion was to expose me:

make you dress really sexy and make you go out?

The thrill of exposure is why I've gotten into HNT so readily. And I'm sure it's the same for you. So. Without further ado, here's me playing at exposing Boy Toy. Aren't we naughty?

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Almost two weeks without orgasm, and Boy Toy's getting pretty desperate. This is the longest we've gone. I know, I know... It isn't very long at all! I fact, I haven't had an orgasm either in all that time. Nothing's stopping me from getting one, yet I don't feel the need. Boy Toy, though... Boy Toy told me he plays with himself every chance he gets. He's in subspace most of the time. And the dreams! They come almost every night, getting kinkier and kinkier. This is his latest one: This one is a little hardcore fetish, mixed with D/s relationship stuff, maybe because of the denial. And lots of pushing limits! I think it's my current state!!! You’re going through rules I’ll have to follow and before I know it I'm stripped right down and I have this feeling that you have everything planned and controlled, that you’re taking everything into your hands. I'm listening to you talk about our relationship, that D/s has been in the works or planned for some time. And you’re sort of re-defining things and going into it more seriously. It’s tied to me not being allowed to cum. And it goes towards submitting to you fully as total property because you’re tired of me trying to resist that or something, it's hindering your progression into this and you would like to go deeper. At some point I remember being on the couch in a submissive position and you’re sitting back and talking, sometimes standing, and I feel too horny and submissive to try to resist. Maybe denial has made me hit a new level. I’m trying to hide how wet I am as you walk behind me and lock my arms behind my neck. And then it goes on to denial stuff, and you’re saying something to the fact that from now on you want to go that way permanently, or it's the new direction and I wont have a choice but to accept it. I remember fearing never cuming or wondering when you would allow it. Then I think I’m missing parts… Next, I'm laying down on the couch, my arms seem to be tied to a collar on my neck, they can't be moved from being clasped behind my neck, and my legs are folded spread wide in some kind of submission position you ordered me into. The position seems to make me feel really vulnerable and totally exposed. You are walking around me, looking down at me. But then you begin to masturbate me, and I remember going all wild and feeling so helpless in this position with my arms bound. I remember begging you and you saying "shhhh, you can't beg, you’re my property and can only get it if I decide you’re good enough to have it". You straddle me, indicating that you want me to make you cum with my tongue, lips, mouth. Then feels like this is going on and I think I can't cum at this point, I’m not allowed or something, so I have to tell you and you stop. Then you unlock one of my hands, saying something in regards to training, that I have to masturbate in front of you, and it goes back to you on my mouth, and I feel shy about masturbating but I'm feeling really fucked. I can't stop and I know you will win in training me to do it. You keep telling me I can't cum so I'm stopping just before and I fear cuming for some reason, I think because I fear punishment or disappointing you. And I think I slip into thoughts here. I'm seeing scenes of me naked an no longer allowed to dress unless you give me permission, I’m seeing myself kneel before you in position when you give the order, a bunch of things like this, and in my mind I'm asking myself, “Can I still resist submission? She knows too much. Do I fully see her as my owner? She knows my psychology too well, and I might have to give all the way in.” Then both my hands are clipped back behind me again and I'm feeling like my orgasm is totally at your mercy. You’re saying something about my situation, I think you mean my position and mental state, that cuming now will take me deeper in realizing and accepting I'm your total property. I would be submitting fully to this sort of dark side, and I remember being a little scared, and saying “Maybe I’m not ready” but not having a choice. There is something about every orgasm given this way only, till you feel I've reached full acceptance. And you’re asking me to keep saying something or you’re saying something, and I feel I’m letting go as I'm apparently reaching orgasm and you are whispering to me that I'm allowed to cum. And I know if I do cum, I'll be conditioned in some way. Then I woke up, turned, and still half asleep, touched myself, but fell asleep again and the dream continued or it was another one that was sort of related. I'm standing, apparently I had an orgasm and my hands are still clipped behind my back. You're telling me it's a critical moment because I've had an orgasm and I'm different mentally now. I'm trying to get you to unlock my hands but you’re in the bathroom searching for something and I come in to try to coerce you. Then you’re laying out this sort of chastity thing, I’ve never seen it and I’m a little scared of what it can do. I remember thinking it might be un-cheatable and un-excusable. There is this struggle, you win, it's on me. Then you’re talking about pushing limits and getting what you desire, it's something about me or males masturbating for show for women, and you mention that you and your girlfriend C are into this, and you want to get some status as having trained me to entertain like this. I'd have to perform. I'm totally nervous and freaking but I feel helpless. I'm like saying no way, and you’re going on about pushing limits. All I remember. But I got up, it was a little after midnight, and I was thinking and writing. I was in a bad state. The denial stuff is hard because I was constantly bringing myself close to orgasm but stopping just before. I managed to get back to bed but before I did, I tried the position from my dream, I don't know why, I just wanted to see I guess. I think I fell asleep right there, or soon after, it was a little blurry, I was really horny and kinda mentally horny in a submissive way. I woke up late, like 10ish, and I smoked my cigarette in the submission position, thinking of the dream. I wanted to play with myself, but A called and wanted to stop by, it was early. :(

In case you missed this in my last few posts, I've taken control of Boy Toy's orgasms again. That was a little over a week ago. He hasn't cum since. He emailed me today while I was at work and asked when he could... you know what. He has been having kinky dreams pretty much every night, most of then involving hypnosis. Of course, it doesn't help that I've had him listen to Lady Julia's Red Silk hypnosis session almost every night. And that I make him smoke his first cigarette of the day naked and kneeling. Every day. All of this combined makes for a frantic, desperate for an orgasm, Boy Toy. We were chatting, earlier tonight, and I thought I'd share our conversation (for those of you not familiar with MSN Messenger, ":$" is for the little blushing smiley... notice Boy Toy does that a lot!).

Elle says: poor boy toy  :P Boy Toy says: :$ Elle says: let's make a deal Boy Toy says: ? I’m scared, that dream was kinda fucked up, and bad for me regarding chastity.  :( Elle says: you can have an orgasm when I have one I haven't had one in as long as you, you know Boy Toy says: :O but I'm a male! Elle says: you are? :P Boy Toy says: like urm, it's like just there to take. while you fantasize you just do it and it's like “ahhhh...” and now life can go on for the next day or so Elle says: if I can take it, you can take it Boy Toy says: :( nope, me male and kinky dreams don't help and mornings, having to take first cigarette in submission position gonna have to very soon Elle says: what's in it for me? to let you cum? I like you like this you're more attentive to your owner Boy Toy says: :$ Just need to cum like just once then can go for another week. It’s been like more than a week!!!! Elle says: tell that to Tom Allen  :P Boy Toy says: he's a super human I could do it in position even, if you want. and the dreams are kinda fucked up... and not in my favour. :O Elle says: I don't control your dreams, Boy Toy Boy Toy says: no but the denial stuff seems to make them worse! So you control them indirectly. ;) Elle says: I offered you a deal Boy Toy says: OK well... that means like urm... this week, one night eh? Elle says: what? Boy Toy says: like , we have to do something this week? like before Thursday since your supper is that night Elle says: pffff you only want to see me because you want to cum Boy Toy says: well, it’s been over a week for me :( it's hard not sure I will be able to stop in time next time Elle says: well then don't play with fire Boy Toy says: dunno if can go another day... strange but what? It's kinda just male stuff. or me... Elle says: BTW, I'm posting this conversation on my blog just thought I'd let you know, first Boy Toy says: ok, but what if tonight or tomorrow I do it? With the dreams and denial and all, I almost can't keep going here! Elle says: I have to think about that Boy Toy says: I have pain in that area at times from not... you know? Elle says: what? yeah right come on, other men go for months or maybe it means I need to milk you? Boy Toy says: :$

So? Should I let him cum or not? It sounds as though he's about to break. I do have a few thoughts on the matter... I haven't specified what his punishment would be if he cums without permission, for one. Another idea I had was to make him masturbate while kneeling (submissive position), and while I watch via webcam. I kinda like that last idea... Any thoughts anyone?

It's thrilling to expose and be exposed. Boy Toy and I play at it a lot. When heading over to his place, I'll tell him to wait for me naked. Exposed. Sometimes, I'll grab a camera and take pictures of him when he's in this most vulnerable of positions. Earlier tonight, we were talking about pushing limits. I paraphrased what maymay wrote recently:

My goal was the same as hers: to push limits. We push each other, we always have, and it’s part of what keeps us moving forward together. Though the willingness to push a bottom’s limits is almost a prerequisite to advertise yourself as a top or a dominant, very rarely does anyone seem to recognize the value of pushing a top’s limits as a bottom, and I think that is a grave oversight for all involved. Often, people expect—sometimes even demand—that bottoms and submissives be entirely passive partners in sex and kink, but I think this is wrong.

With that in mind, I told Boy Toy I'd like to hear suggestions of things HE would like to try. And it's funny, his first suggestion was to expose me:

make you dress really sexy and make you go out?

The thrill of exposure is why I've gotten into HNT so readily. And I'm sure it's the same for you. So. Without further ado, here's me playing at exposing Boy Toy. Aren't we naughty? 

Want to join in the HNT sexy fun? Check out Osbasso's place! 

Ok, I've given Boy Toy an assignment: come up with three things we could do on Owner Friday. And he couldn't cheat, it had to be something I would likely do and enjoy. This is what he came up with:

1. Me in chain-harness cooking for you. 2. me in leather harness with remote control butt plug. :O 3. massage with happy ending.

Now, for YOUR assignment: vote! Which of these three should I pick? I'll listen, and I'm thinking I'll take pictures and post them. A reward, of sorts. GO! _______________ Edit: Not many votes yet, only three, and so far, the massage is winning. But I thought I'd give a bit more background information to help you guys with your voting, I was in a hurry when I posted this earlier. First of all, I would love all three options, so really, go nuts, choose YOUR favorite. The chain-harness... This one is fun because there's no forgetting it's on. It's snug in all the right places and it pulls when Boy Toy walks... He blushes a lot when he wears it. If he cooks for me wearing that, I'll be either sipping a drink and reading a book, comfortable on his big, lush couch, or sitting at the kitchen counter, enjoying the view. Not lifting a finger, of course. But the leather harness with the remote control butt plug is fun, too! We got both the Remote control vibrating butt plug and the Anal plug harness and haven't used them much yet, except maybe for one memorable punishment. I guess Boy Toy forgot that he could also cook for me while wearing this puppy. I could simply buzz him whenever I need a refill of my drink. As for the massage with a happy ending, they're always fun, of course. Boy Toy normally uses baby oil to massage me, and will gradually start massaging closer and closer to my sweet spot, until finally I'm wet and practically moaning. That's usually when he'll use his tongue on me, and that's one of my favorite things. God, he is SO good at this. I could make this one more interesting though and bring my vibrator so he can use it on me. Hope this helps!

I have a fantasy. Let me tell you my fantasy. I'm at Boy Toy's. I order him naked and I handcuff him to a post, his back to the post, his hands behind him. I blindfold him. I put the CB6000 or the Houdini on him. Then I call up a few friends and ask them to come hang out. So they come, and we hang out and we drink shooters and we talk and we laugh as if there is nothing out of the ordinary going on, as if they can't see my Boy Toy handcuffed to his post, naked except for his chastity device, exposed, blindfolded... and probably dripping pre-cum. Maybe I only invite girlfriends that he doesn't know. Maybe I invite our friends.

Once in a while during the evening, I go up to him and kiss him hungrily. I fondle him. He probably knows it's me, kissing and fondling him. Probably. If I feel very mean, we go out and leave him to his predicament. Of course, when I come back, I take off the chastity device and jerk him off until he cums, without saying a word. I'm sure he knows it's me. You want to know what the best part is? The way Boy Toy is wired, I could do this to him. And my friends, they're kinky folks, they'd go for it...

In my last post, I left off with Saturday morning's sex episode. But this wasn't Boy Toy's last orgasm of the weekend, even though that was initially my intention. We spent most of the day out and when we got back to Boy Toy's, we ran to the grocery store to get something yummy for supper. Back home with the food, I remembered that Boy Toy owed me some chain-harness time, so I told him to put it on. He responded with his usual "Now?" but when I insisted that yes, I wanted him to put it on "now", he complied without further complaint. I helped him in the harness, because I enjoy doing so but also because putting it on is complicated business. There are things to attach in the back, for one. But what I most wanted to help with was putting the collar on, and locking it. It is a measure of Boy Toy's trust in me that he let me put the padlock on, and close it, without even asking me if I knew where the key for the thing is. Oh well, as we both remarked after, we could always cut him out of the harness if anything happened to the key... But that would make me very sad, I love our home-made chain-harness! I love it when Boy Toy wears the harness. I'm starting to think I have a metal fetish, like him (Steelwerk's Chastity Cage is oh, so hot, me want one). I find the thing looks hot on him. Or he looks hot in it: he definitely has a body that I thoroughly enjoy looking at. I often find myself doing just that, looking at him and enjoying it. Which is fun because when he notices, he blushes.

But back to Saturday night... While he got busy preparing our supper, I took out his camera and started shooting pictures of him. I used to do that quite a bit, and it had been a while. Thelighting was great for this type of picture, and with the harness it looks simply gorgeous. After supper Boy Toy needed a cigarette, so we moved on to the couch where he kneeled while I watched, as usual. When he was done, I told him to give me a massage. He did a very decent and thorough job of it. He didn't forget my clitoris. He played with it until I came. This is where my plans got ruined. I just had to have him inside of me. What can I say? I'm weak. I'm fickle. But I'm in charge, so if I want to fuck him, I fuck him. So, plans changed. I figured, might as well give him another orgasm, because I don't want him to have any this week and haven't decided yet about next weekend. So, we had sex, with him still wearing the chain-harness. The ring around his cock and balls acts as a cock ring and makes him nice and big and hard and the chain grinds against my clitoris while I ride him. Hmm.   As soon as we were done, a friend of ours called and said he was coming over so unfortunately, I had to let Boy Toy out of the harness. But it's ok, it means I only used up 2 of the 4 hours in harness he owed me. And on top of that, later on Boy Toy wanted to smoke without kneeling/stripping, so I delt for another 2 hours in harness. More harness-training later, then. As a side note, I just asked him how he's doing with the orgasm denial and he said "not bad today, I had a good weekend".  We'll see what he says later this week...