Almost two weeks without orgasm, and Boy Toy’s getting pretty desperate. This is the longest we’ve gone. I know, I know… It isn’t very long at all! I fact, I haven’t had an orgasm either in all that time. Nothing’s stopping me from getting one, yet I don’t feel the need. Boy Toy, though… Boy Toy told me he plays with himself every chance he gets. He’s in subspace most of the time. And the dreams! They come almost every night, getting kinkier and kinkier. This is his latest one:

This one is a little hardcore fetish, mixed with D/s relationship stuff, maybe because of the denial. And lots of pushing limits! I think it’s my current state!!!

You’re going through rules I’ll have to follow and before I know it I’m stripped right down and I have this feeling that you have everything planned and controlled, that you’re taking everything into your hands.

I’m listening to you talk about our relationship, that D/s has been in the works or planned for some time. And you’re sort of re-defining things and going into it more seriously. It’s tied to me not being allowed to cum. And it goes towards submitting to you fully as total property because you’re tired of me trying to resist that or something, it’s hindering your progression into this and you would like to go deeper. Read the rest of this entry »

Boy Toy’s enforced chastity has brought on an onslaught of kinky dreams. He’s getting quite flustered, and the dreams are very telling of this… Here’s his two most recent:

Dream 1

This one is strange, because for parts of the dream, I was kinda in your mind, seeing things from your point of view.

We are hanging out but I’m naked and I’m feeling submissive, and I remember seeing myself through you, as your sub, and having all kinds of strange thoughts.

Like in one part I’m me and naked and exposed and thinking it’s accessible and I could masturbate. Once I’m alone perhaps, or in private, I could. Read the rest of this entry »

This most recent dream of Boy Toy’s is fucked up, sexy and… hilarious. I love it that whatever is going on in our lives, he’ll dream kinky dreams about it. I especially like the part about the bee stinger… 

So here goes another freaked out dream… It’s kinda hard to explain because it’s weird mental things going on.

Apparently you have hypnotized me and created a trigger or something that seems related to the fact that I now have a collar locked on. This scary thought comes over me that because it’s locked on, I can’t stop the submissive hypno thing going on.

I’m asking you when you might be taking it off, but you get frustrated at me, talking loudly in a scolding way. You’re wearing this little red dress, walking back and forth, and saying “This is the problem, it’s not coming off, I’ve wanted 24/7 but your fear of it is blocking me, blocking us”. Apparently, all this hypno stuff would make me accept it, be comfortable with it. Read the rest of this entry »

Boy Toy hasn’t been having kinky dreams much, lately. I guess it would have to do with how busy he’s been. He works hard, that boy. To be fair, I’ve been pretty busy too, and you may have noticed there hasn’t been much kinky action going on either. *sigh* Sometimes I wanna get kinky just so Boy Toy starts dreaming again… Of course, with the dreams he has, I barely have to do anything! Here’s his latest:

You were making sort of tutorial videos for wannabe Dommes and using me as a subject.

Someone was filming but I couldn’t tell who, and at one point you show the camera my collar which I didn’t know was there, and you say to the camera that you keep this on me at all times to mentally condition me and remind me I’m owned. You went on about how important the “never clothing” rule was and stuff.

Then there’s one little part where I’m kneeling, in an exposed postion, and you are telling them that it was natural now for me to do this since you had trained me and I was thinking to myself “Is this true? hurm… that’s kinda fucked up, how come I wasn’t aware of this… and will I forget that she did this and continue doing it for her wihout questioning it?”

Then there is this part where you are talking to the camera person about the next scene, while I’m standing just behind you and you are holding a leash attached to my collar and I’m kinda just waiting there.

Another part was about how popular your videos are, and you were making money off them. You said you had quite a lot of fans.

The last part is you contemplating if you want our friend C to edit the videos you are making and I was trying to convince you not to, but I had this feeling that it wasn’t my say. I was really nervous about the decision you were about to take.

dats it!

Isn’t it strange, when I decided to take control of Boy Toy’s orgasms, he kept having all these kinky dreams. A LOT of them. I posted a few here, but there were more that he never got around to write for me.

It’s been what, 2 weeks now since I “released” him? And all I got in all this time is this pitiable excuse for a dream:

I woke up and I had metal cuffs, a collar and ankle cuffs on, solidly locked, and I was confused because I couldn’t remember when I or you put them on, and when they were coming off. I asked you but I wasn’t getting a straight answer. I think I was asking you via email or chat.

There was something too about them being for display… It’s vague, I’m not sure if they were for you to see or for others. Then there are a few other parts but nothing related to fetish, like we had to go somewhere but the car wasn’t working or something. That’s all I remember.

I appreciate that he at least made the effort to write it down for me but… Wow, pretty lame. We’re going to have to start getting into some kinky talks before bed, or else I’ll have to go back to orgasm denial, because I kinda miss my Boy Toy’s dirty dreams!

Who knows, maybe he’ll read this post just before bed and it’ll inspire his subconscious mind.

In my last post, I wrote that Boy Toy and I joked about a secret Dom society that breeds subs. Imagine my delight when he told me that this idea insinuated itself in one of his dreams! Well, sort of. Here’s his account of it:

I kinda forgot where it starts… Something about me finding out that you’ve been in this group of dominants. Sort of like the FemDomme Society but more male/female Doms, I think the reference comes from that society but it was sort of altered in my dream.

You made friends there, many friends, people like you. You’ve invited a Dom friend over, they seem to be happy… but it’s a little fucked up here because somehow I didn’t know about all this and just found out and then you tell me that someone is coming over, a friend of yours, and you met him there.

Then I remember he’s here, he’s a clean looking guy and seems very intelligent. He’s very tall. You’re introducing me but as a sub, your property. Both of you seem to be getting along and there’s a part about you getting along better with males than females. You two seem good friends.

Then it’s turns to D/s and 24/7 like stuff… again! Read the rest of this entry »

Boy Toy has the most wonderful dreams, I’ve said it before. He’s been dreaming of 24/7 a lot (well, he almost only dreams about that, really), and this one even incorporates the orgasm denial I’ve been putting him through. I really believe these dreams of his contribute to his overall submissiveness. They don’t hurt, at any rate…

It starts off with shopping, we’re going in stores looking at clothing but there is some unknown here, I think you have a plan you want to surprise me with at home.

I remember walking up the stairs and you’re leaning against the countertop just looking at me with a smile that says you have something kinky on your mind, maybe a secret.

I’m asking you what’s wrong, and it turns to a conversation about 24/7, that it’s starting now, and I feel unprepared, nervous, at your mercy and totally submissive too for some reason. It’s your thing, the way you want, and I feel I have to give in completely and follow you. Read the rest of this entry »

This orgasm denial thing is great, Boy Toy is in quite a state! I’ve decided that this week, there would be no mid-week relief allowed. Add that to our recent kinky conversations, last weekend’s activities, his dreams… He’s pretty much begging for me to let him cum. I’ve had an idea for the next time I allow him to cum, thanks to another blogger, but I’m keeping it for later. I mentioned this to Boy Toy in an email today, though, and he was curious. “If I tell you,  I said, you’ll have to do it. Still interested?” After quite a bit of hesitation, he decided that this sounded too dangerous. So, later then. In the meantime, here is his latest kinky dream. Enjoy!

I was cooking in the chain-harness, but somehow it’s more snug or tight on me, it’s almost part of me but it violates and feels like it holds everywhere, like it’s permanently on and it’s part of you, like urm… like you’re making me notice I’m bound. Its up tight against my butt crack, around my sex everywhere, around my neck, around my wrists, my ankles… all locked and it can’t be removed, it’s comfy but reminding… I think it’s the best way I could explain that scene.

Then there are two women visiting you at my place and it’s about that site you just joined. You had made friends with them and knew them well but I’d never met them. I’m dressed at this point. There are quick introductions, one is blond and keeps swinging her head to move her hair, almost aggravating. But you are having a conversation and I’m not part of it, I don’t feel like I’m invited to participate. Read the rest of this entry »

Boy Toy is telling me that his dreams tend more and more towards the “24/7″ theme, which has got him worried… But I think it’s just that the fantasy is fucking hot to him. The actual thing is unrealistic. Right?

It’s something about a contract that you want me to sign and some of the items in it scare me a little. There is public sort of stuff and I really want to alter it or to avoid signing it, but I feel trapped, I have no choice but to sign. I’m too weak not to sign it, yet I’m hesitant.

Then there’s a fight, an argument between us and next thing I remember, I’m signing it.

You’re talking about pushing limits or where you want this to go, something along the lines that you’re making this happen for you yet you have to push me or force me. I’m too scared, or chicken. But there’s a 24/7 element here as you’re saying this isn’t a game anymore, you want to fully incorporate it into our relationship. I just remember I felt too weak to resist, but scared like hell and it was too late, it was signed. Read the rest of this entry »

Sometimes it’s easy to tell where Boy Toy got the “inspiration” for his dreams, but sometimes… Well, words just won’t explain this one. Still, I couldn’t help but laugh and find him extremely cute, when he told me this dream. He related it over IM, and I’ve edited it for your reading pleasure. Enjoy!

You would have totally freaked on the chastity thing you had for me in my last dream. Even I was impressed. It revolved around being 100% fully secure and how that affects me.

It was fucked up, and what was really funny was that people were here and there was some sort of olive fest going on! There were all kinds of olives everywhere, even red ones. And people were just freaking out on them, and I was like “Ok, they are good but holy shit, are these people on xtacy or what???”

Then the cage was on the table and I was looking at it. You came by and said “It’s cool eh?” And I was just happy, going “yeah, fucking amazing” but then you’re saying something along the lines that you “found the ultimate solution, it can be on at all times, and I could go jogging and etc…” Read the rest of this entry »