I’ve already admitted, a little earlier today, that I play Final Fantasy. Now that the cat’s out of the bag, I can show you.

Happy HNT!

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I know, I know, I haven’t been posting. I just haven’t had the inspiration, and it isn’t the first time! Guess there’s just nothing much blog-worthy going on in my life these days. Not much sex, that’s for sure

Actually, that last part is a bit of a problem for me. I’d definitely be up for more than I’m getting. From the little talks I’ve had with BT regarding this, he’s a bit bored with “regular” sex and would rather do something kinky. Fine with me, but… I don’t want it to be all up to me. Even with good old vanilla sex, I’m always the one to initiate. BT just isn’t an initiating kinda guy, and that’s been getting to me.

I don’t know if it’s just me, or if most women feel the same way, but I want my guy to want me. I want him to lust after me and show it and come for me. At least once in a while. Even when it comes to kink, I’ve always had to come up with everything – or so it seems to me. I’ve had to think of what I wanted to do to him, and then go and do it. It’s fun, but after a while, a girl needs to feel desired, you know?

So it’s coming to the point where I don’t even feel like initiating anymore because my treacherous little brain is imagining that he doesn’t desire me. At this point, we haven’t had sex in about a week and a half (for me, that’s a long time). Kind of a sucky situation for a sex blog, hmm? No wonder I haven’t been posting.

I have told him that I am all for doing kinky stuff, but just want him to take a bit more initiative. It’s been discussed before, and nothing changed, so I ended up getting angry at him, which – predictably – hasn’t resolved anything. It’s not all bad, since he DID say he’d make an effort, and I AM willing to do kink. We just have to make it happen? So I don’t know… Does anyone have any suggestion? What would you do in my position? I’ve even gone so far as to suggest cuckolding but quickly backed away from my own suggestion, as it’s not really what I want. What I want is more sex with my BT. Cuckolding might come later, I don’t know yet, but I’m certainly not ready for it now.

Other things have kept me from my blog, as well. I’ve had a dental intervention (let’s call it that) last week. It went very well and the only thing it’s prevented me from doing is drinking and working out. Then I started playing Final Fantasy again, and I’ve been finding myself drawn to my Play Station as soon as I have a bit of free time. That’s not blog-posting compatible, it would seem. Yet all is not lost, since I’m posting right now… and will probably try to come up with something for HNT later. Stay tuned!