Yesterday night, before I went to bed, I left the CB6000 on the counter in the bathroom, with a post-it note which said “Put it on!”

It woke me up when he joined me at 2 am, and I sleepily felt his crotch to see if he had obeyed. “It’s on”, he said, and I went right back to sleep. Today, at work, I had afterthoughts so I emailed him to make sure he was ok with it, considering how things have been of late. We only got to talk about it when I got back home from work, but I’m satisfied that it’s not a hard limit. He says he’s ok with it as long as I don’t do it as a means of getting what I want. What I told him is: “I’m doing it to get what I want, yes. But not “relationship-wise” (which is what I think he meant). I’m doing it to get your attention, sexually.”

Because a locked-up Boy Toy is a different Boy Toy. I’m sure most men into chastity play know this. I guess maybe I’m cheating a bit, because I wish I had this kind of attention from him all the time, in the “normal” course of our relationship, if that makes any sense… He thought I was saying it was a means of getting more attention, but that’s not really it. It’s not the same kind of attention. Constant sexual awareness and wakefulness, is more like it. And I simply love that.

We opened a bottle of wine and talked, tonight. It was great. We talked about kink and I’m feeling more positive than I have in a long time. I’ll have to tell you all about it another time, right now I gotta go finish my wine.