Dear readers, I didn’t mean to leave you in the dark the last few days. Don’t worry, the storm has passed. The seas remained a bit rough for a few days, but with blue skies and bright sunlight making a shy appearance. Be warned, though: this is another of my rambling posts. Feel free to skip. It’s just good for my sanity to throw all my thoughts and worries and feelings in a heap of a post, and then try to organize them into something coherent.

I didn’t see Boy Toy much this weekend. He needed the space, and I needed to give it to him. I spent some time with friends and finally saw him at the club, Saturday night. He arrived later than me and when he did, I was a the bar chatting with a guy. A guy who was telling me about his girlfriend and his coming baby, mind you, but Boy Toy didn’t know that. But it didn’t matter, never matters with Boy Toy. I would love to be as self-confident as he is!

I was dressed in a way I knew he would find sexy. He walked right up to me, nevermind that I had “company”, and checked me out from head to toe. Someone behind him said something to him but he said “Not now, I’m cruising”. Ah, how cute. I introduced him to my new friend, whose name I had unfortunately forgotten (I’m just not very good with names). And that’s how the night started. The rest is a bit of a blur, I must admit. After my roller coaster of emotions, I indulged a bit too much. I remember giving some drunken relationship advice to other couples… Me, who can barely manage MY relationship! Read the rest of this entry »