I long to be free of this need for restraint.

This wish expressed in yesterday’s HNT post came true, as wishes are wont to do. Familiar with the phrase “Be careful what you’re wishing for”? No, don’t worry, Boy Toy and I didn’t break up and aren’t planning to. But there is no need for restraint anymore because I did lash out at him. It started innocently enough. I told him “It just bugs me that there’s no time to talk to me”.

This, in fact, is an ongoing issue with us. He’s busy, he works hard. Not some lazy ass bum, my Boy Toy. But it’s hard on me. I miss him. So sometimes I get grumpy. Sometimes I even get frustrated. He doesn’t understand this, as he’s quite happy whether I’m there or not. Very self-sufficient, my Boy Toy. I’m not saying he doesn’t like it if I’m there. Just that maybe he doesn’t require my presence as much as I need his. We’re different, I guess that’s what makes things interesting. Read the rest of this entry »