Boy Toy has the most wonderful dreams, I’ve said it before. He’s been dreaming of 24/7 a lot (well, he almost only dreams about that, really), and this one even incorporates the orgasm denial I’ve been putting him through. I really believe these dreams of his contribute to his overall submissiveness. They don’t hurt, at any rate…

It starts off with shopping, we’re going in stores looking at clothing but there is some unknown here, I think you have a plan you want to surprise me with at home.

I remember walking up the stairs and you’re leaning against the countertop just looking at me with a smile that says you have something kinky on your mind, maybe a secret.

I’m asking you what’s wrong, and it turns to a conversation about 24/7, that it’s starting now, and I feel unprepared, nervous, at your mercy and totally submissive too for some reason. It’s your thing, the way you want, and I feel I have to give in completely and follow you.

There’s a part about me being confused because the 24/7 thing sounds much more involved or extreme than what we discussed in the past. I’m not sure in what way, I’m just sort of scared, resisting and wanting to discuss this but you’re pushing. It was really strange, like the feeling I had the other day where I’m resisting but on the edge of letting all go, sort of falling into your hands and letting you lead. It’s kinda like that, just feeling weaker to resist and giving into what ever control.

I’m not sure if I forgot what’s next or what, it kinda skips to having given in.

I think there was a small part about no longer being able to use “red” as a safe word since this was 24/7, and I remember how this made me really concerned but I felt I was falling and giving in, as if your control of my orgasms had brought me there, or you had found a perfect switch in me.

Then we’re facing each other and part of the 24/7 thing, which sort of lingers all the way through, is that you’re defining positions and it seems that in each position my legs are spread to expose myself to you. At times I’m glancing at this window, worried that someone might look in and you gently turn my head away, asking me to pay attention.

Next thing I know I’m in a position facing you, I feel I have totally given in, in this position, and you’re telling me that only you will put the CB on from now on. And you’re also unhappy or disappointed in knowing that I played with myself some mornings and I remember saying “but I never cum” and you’re claiming it’s still pleasure, and it’s sort of a conflict with what you want from me. And before I can make my point you lock me in saying this will prevent it until I am better trained. And looking down, you’re holding me and suddenly I have this feeling of giving in, owned like…

I’m still in position facing you but on the floor and I want to ask you how this came to be, that you weren’t kinky before, not to this level or extreme anyway. I must have asked because then you’re telling me that this was always your darkest desire, you always wanted this. You said you kept it a secret until you knew or learnt how to make me fully submit. I remember asking myself “is this why I’m so excited? Or why I’m so compliant and I’ve surrendered to you?” Then in the dream I realize it’s a dream and I’m smiling at you saying “Elle, this is a dream, look around” but you seem serious and say “yes, but you can’t control it, only I can” with a little confident smile and I don’t believe you so I try to wake up… and I succeed.