I’m guilty. Well, we’re guilty. Boy Toy and I haven’t gotten around to doing a new photoshoot, so here we are, it’s HNT time and all I’ve got is old pictures.

I’m also guilty of not having much to say, this week. I have a couple of drafts going on, but can’t bring myself to finishing them. I’ve been wanting to tell you all about how hot shower sex with Boy Toy is. But somehow I can’t find the words to do it justice. I suck at writing about sizzling, steamy sex, anyway.

I hope you can all find it in your heart to forgive me!

Want to join in the HNT sexy fun? Check out Osbasso’s place! 

Isn’t it strange, when I decided to take control of Boy Toy’s orgasms, he kept having all these kinky dreams. A LOT of them. I posted a few here, but there were more that he never got around to write for me.

It’s been what, 2 weeks now since I “released” him? And all I got in all this time is this pitiable excuse for a dream:

I woke up and I had metal cuffs, a collar and ankle cuffs on, solidly locked, and I was confused because I couldn’t remember when I or you put them on, and when they were coming off. I asked you but I wasn’t getting a straight answer. I think I was asking you via email or chat.

There was something too about them being for display… It’s vague, I’m not sure if they were for you to see or for others. Then there are a few other parts but nothing related to fetish, like we had to go somewhere but the car wasn’t working or something. That’s all I remember.

I appreciate that he at least made the effort to write it down for me but… Wow, pretty lame. We’re going to have to start getting into some kinky talks before bed, or else I’ll have to go back to orgasm denial, because I kinda miss my Boy Toy’s dirty dreams!

Who knows, maybe he’ll read this post just before bed and it’ll inspire his subconscious mind.

So, my readers have spoken (see previous post) and this Owner Friday, I had my Boy Toy give me a massage with a happy ending. I’m a little surprised that the less kinky option of the three won… Boy Toy was feeling lucky indeed, Friday night. Because of course, he reads my blog and he knew about the vote thing.

It didn’t matter to me which suggestion won. The important part was having Boy Toy come up with the ideas. I told him there could be no cheating: if I didn’t like his suggestions, if I thought he was trying for an easy way out of it, I would give him a spanking.

I was quite pleased with my idea. This way, I didn’t have to come up with anything for Owner Friday, which suited me just fine since I was so busy last week. In fact, I came up with the notion just before I had to leave on an errand. I quickly IMed Boy Toy, telling him to email me his three suggestions. When I got back home, I had about 10 minutes before I had to leave for the evening and on a whim, I decided to have you vote on them and quickly published my post. When I asked Boy Toy if he had seen it, the next day, he blushed. He was quite flustered at having his fate in my readers’ hands, which was exactly the effect I was going for! Read the rest of this entry »

Ok, I’ve given Boy Toy an assignment: come up with three things we could do on Owner Friday. And he couldn’t cheat, it had to be something I would likely do and enjoy. This is what he came up with:

1. Me in chain-harness cooking for you.
2. me in leather harness with remote control butt plug. :O
3. massage with happy ending.

Now, for YOUR assignment: vote! Which of these three should I pick? I’ll listen, and I’m thinking I’ll take pictures and post them. A reward, of sorts.

GO!

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Edit: Not many votes yet, only three, and so far, the massage is winning. But I thought I’d give a bit more background information to help you guys with your voting, I was in a hurry when I posted this earlier.

First of all, I would love all three options, so really, go nuts, choose YOUR favorite.

The chain-harness… This one is fun because there’s no forgetting it’s on. It’s snug in all the right places and it pulls when Boy Toy walks… He blushes a lot when he wears it. If he cooks for me wearing that, I’ll be either sipping a drink and reading a book, comfortable on his big, lush couch, or sitting at the kitchen counter, enjoying the view. Not lifting a finger, of course.

But the leather harness with the remote control butt plug is fun, too! We got both the Remote control vibrating butt plug and the Anal plug harness and haven’t used them much yet, except maybe for one memorable punishment. I guess Boy Toy forgot that he could also cook for me while wearing this puppy. I could simply buzz him whenever I need a refill of my drink.

As for the massage with a happy ending, they’re always fun, of course. Boy Toy normally uses baby oil to massage me, and will gradually start massaging closer and closer to my sweet spot, until finally I’m wet and practically moaning. That’s usually when he’ll use his tongue on me, and that’s one of my favorite things. God, he is SO good at this. I could make this one more interesting though and bring my vibrator so he can use it on me.

Hope this helps!

I’ve been tagged by SubHeart and now I have to share 7 facts about me. Well, I don’t HAVE to but it’s the polite thing to do, since I’m it

The challenge I find is to come up with interesting stuff… And not reveal too much about myself. I like my anonymity, thank you. So here’s a few things you may (or may not) want to know about me:

1. I don’t believe in God.

2. I’m a geek. I play Final Fantasy, I am a fan of Star Trek and an avid reader of sci-fi and fantasy books. How much geeker can you get?

3. I lost my virginity at 16.

4. I used a vibrator for the first time at 29. I’m 30 years old.

5, My first language is French.

6. I don’t smoke and I don’t do drugs. I’ve tried pot a few times and speed once, but I just don’t care for them.

7. I’m trigger-happy when it comes to orgasms. Yup, I’m fast and easy.

I’m not tagging anyone because I’m just such a rebel and I don’t play by the rules. Hah.

And of course, since it’s Wednesday night, I might as well take advantage of this post and spoil you with some HNT action. I’m starting to run out of pictures, or at least, pictures that aren’t from any series I’ve posted before. They are beginning to all look alike, to me. Boy Toy and I have been thinking of a new photoshoot, but just haven’t gotten around to it. We also kinda need an idea. Some sort of theme, or just some inspiration. I’ve been looking through the Nuexpo gallery and found a few pictures I like. I’m open to suggestions… In the meantime, enjoy this week’s HNT!

Want to join in the HNT sexy fun? Check out Osbasso’s place! 

I mentioned in passing, in a post last week, that I decided to give the orgasm denial thing a break, but I haven’t said much about it, aside from this:

“[...] it was very intense and I felt Boy Toy had a hard time concentrating on anything else, which I think he needs. I also wanted to see how things would be without the denial, if he just goes back to his old self or if a bit of the submission remains. And I’d like to figure out what I really want, before going too far along that road.”

There are a few things I’d like to add to that. I’ll start with saying that nothing went wrong. I didn’t stop this little experiment of mine because I didn’t like it or we had a fight or any such thing.

I was just a little unsure. Like I said last week, it was very intense. I had never seen Boy Toy act quite that way before. Sure, all the attention was fun, but it’s not what I’m used to. Read the rest of this entry »

About two months ago, Ms Inconspicuous confessed to having an illogical, impractical desire: to be his. Illogical and impractical in her situation especially, she is an adulteress (by the way, if you’ve never read her, you should). In her own words, “we have no right to ask for fidelity from an adulterer.” Yet she craves for someone who’ll say “I won’t share you”.

Marianne, too, understands this sentiment (and you should read her, too). “I want me to be what you want”, she says.

Reading them, I was all but nodding in agreement. Yes, to be desired. Wanted. To be someone’s “Mine”. I don’t know very many women who love the idea of a man that wants to share them. I can just picture the conversation with the girls at the office:

“Hey, what if your guy said he didn’t mind if you slept around?”
“What? No way, he would have to be at least a little bit jealous…”
“No, no, he really wouldn’t be jealous.”
“Ugh. Well, that sucks. Wouldn’t that mean he doesn’t care about me?” 

Of course, Boy Toy is exactly like that hypothetical boyfriend I was describing. Read the rest of this entry »

Time. It can fly and it can drag. I’ve been feeling like I don’t have any, of late. If a thing derives its value from its scarcity, then my time is precious indeed! But it’s silly, really, because I’m not one of those career/family women, juggling work and kids while trying to organize the local bakery sale. So where does my time go? How is it that at the end of the week, I feel like I’ve been running the marathon?

And more importantly for this blog, why do I feel like I haven’t had the time to come up with evil little ideas of delightful torments to put my Boy Toy through? Now THAT is the sad part. If you’ve been along for the ride for a while, you know that the last thing I put Boy Toy through was a bit of orgasm denial, and that we’ve recently decided that Fridays belong to me. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself, but it all seems pretty bland and unoriginal, to me.

Or maybe it’s just in my head. Looking back through my posts, I realized that we used the chain-harness a few weeks ago (which reminds me that Boy Toy still owes me 4 hours of chain-harness time, yay!). And there was some play time about a month and a half ago.  Read the rest of this entry »

Yesterday, I suffered from a case of Owner’s block. You know, like writer’s block except for boy toy owners. It was the second edition of “Owner Fridays” and I just didn’t know what to do with it. Part of it is lack of ideas/imagination and time to think. And part of it is that on Friday nights, I have the whole work week behind me and still haven’t completely recovered. My personal and professional lives are just so different, and lately, the professional part has been making me a little depressed. Weekends generally find me very happy, though, but there’s a little transition period on Friday evenings.

Sometimes I stay home for a bit and eat, relax, take a bath… Take care of myself, before heading to Boy Toy’s. Other times, the “wait”seems unbearable and I just want to go see him right away. Yesterday, that’s how I felt. I ate quickly and cleaned up a little, then packed a few things and called him. “I’m on my way. Be naked when I get there.”

I was fully prepared to exercise my authority at the slightest protest from Boy Toy, but he must have remembered what day it was and he simply accepted my instructions. And obeyed: he was naked when I got there. Read the rest of this entry »

Tomorrow night is my second Owner Friday. I haven’t made any plans yet, so I’m open to suggestions… Anyone?

On another note, there really is a big difference in Boy Toy when I control his orgasms, and when I don’t. I think I like it better when I do. Still, I want to leave him a bit of a break. But I’m thinking more and more that I’ll definitely go back to the denial/control. In the meantime, I have lots of reading and listening to do, thanks to maymay!

And on THAT note, I’m off to bed.