Boy Toy is telling me that his dreams tend more and more towards the “24/7″ theme, which has got him worried… But I think it’s just that the fantasy is fucking hot to him. The actual thing is unrealistic. Right?

It’s something about a contract that you want me to sign and some of the items in it scare me a little. There is public sort of stuff and I really want to alter it or to avoid signing it, but I feel trapped, I have no choice but to sign. I’m too weak not to sign it, yet I’m hesitant.

Then there’s a fight, an argument between us and next thing I remember, I’m signing it.

You’re talking about pushing limits or where you want this to go, something along the lines that you’re making this happen for you yet you have to push me or force me. I’m too scared, or chicken. But there’s a 24/7 element here as you’re saying this isn’t a game anymore, you want to fully incorporate it into our relationship. I just remember I felt too weak to resist, but scared like hell and it was too late, it was signed. Read the rest of this entry »