In my last post, I left off with Saturday morning’s sex episode. But this wasn’t Boy Toy’s last orgasm of the weekend, even though that was initially my intention.

We spent most of the day out and when we got back to Boy Toy’s, we ran to the grocery store to get something yummy for supper. Back home with the food, I remembered that Boy Toy owed me some chain-harness time, so I told him to put it on. He responded with his usual “Now?” but when I insisted that yes, I wanted him to put it on “now”, he complied without further complaint.

I helped him in the harness, because I enjoy doing so but also because putting it on is complicated business. There are things to attach in the back, for one. But what I most wanted to help with was putting the collar on, and locking it. It is a measure of Boy Toy’s trust in me that he let me put the padlock on, and close it, without even asking me if I knew where the key for the thing is. Oh well, as we both remarked after, we could always cut him out of the harness if anything happened to the key… But that would make me very sad, I love our home-made chain-harness! Read the rest of this entry »

So, where did I leave you guys off? Oh, yeah. I’m still playing at orgasm denial with Boy Toy. Well, not exactly denial, I’ve let him cum a few times. I’m way too generous, really. So, orgasm control, then.

Last week, I gave him a special permission. He could have one orgasm, but during a specific time frame. It was to be Wednesday night, or rather Thursday morning, starting at midnight, and he would have half an hour only. I thought this would make an interesting dilemma, since Boy Toy usually goes out with the boys Wednesday nights. I was curious to see how he’d manage it, if he would skip going out or if he would take a little “bathroom” break while the boys were at his place.

He decided not to go out. I guess he wanted to cum THAT much! The next morning, however, he reported that he went a little over his time limit. It was 12:20 by the time the boys left, he got to bed and started playing with himself, and it seems his fear of disobeying, of going over the limit, made it hard for him to get into it. He says he then started fantasizing and must have orgasmed around 12:50, he’s not sure as he had no clock handy. I’m still trying to decide if I want to punish him for that or not. Read the rest of this entry »

Boy Toy is telling me that his dreams tend more and more towards the “24/7″ theme, which has got him worried… But I think it’s just that the fantasy is fucking hot to him. The actual thing is unrealistic. Right?

It’s something about a contract that you want me to sign and some of the items in it scare me a little. There is public sort of stuff and I really want to alter it or to avoid signing it, but I feel trapped, I have no choice but to sign. I’m too weak not to sign it, yet I’m hesitant.

Then there’s a fight, an argument between us and next thing I remember, I’m signing it.

You’re talking about pushing limits or where you want this to go, something along the lines that you’re making this happen for you yet you have to push me or force me. I’m too scared, or chicken. But there’s a 24/7 element here as you’re saying this isn’t a game anymore, you want to fully incorporate it into our relationship. I just remember I felt too weak to resist, but scared like hell and it was too late, it was signed. Read the rest of this entry »

I’ve been pretty damn busy lately. Work is crazy. I can feel the pressure all through my back and shoulder muscles. And it seems like my personal life is catching the disease, too. Lots of running around, of late. But I can take it. See? I’m dressed for the fight! Bring it on!

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Sometimes it’s easy to tell where Boy Toy got the “inspiration” for his dreams, but sometimes… Well, words just won’t explain this one. Still, I couldn’t help but laugh and find him extremely cute, when he told me this dream. He related it over IM, and I’ve edited it for your reading pleasure. Enjoy!

You would have totally freaked on the chastity thing you had for me in my last dream. Even I was impressed. It revolved around being 100% fully secure and how that affects me.

It was fucked up, and what was really funny was that people were here and there was some sort of olive fest going on! There were all kinds of olives everywhere, even red ones. And people were just freaking out on them, and I was like “Ok, they are good but holy shit, are these people on xtacy or what???”

Then the cage was on the table and I was looking at it. You came by and said “It’s cool eh?” And I was just happy, going “yeah, fucking amazing” but then you’re saying something along the lines that you “found the ultimate solution, it can be on at all times, and I could go jogging and etc…” Read the rest of this entry »

Axe from Unspeakable Axe, in response to my last post, asked me this:

As someone who’s been curious about orgasm denial, I’m interested in what denial feels like for you. Meaning what it does for you, why it’s a kind motivation for you. Is it just about knowing he’s denying himself pleasure because it’s what you want?

It’s a good question, and it takes a certain amount of introspection (which I suck at). I saw his comment a few hours ago and it’s been on my mind ever since. I decided to post about it because my answer would probably end up being somewhat long and more post material than comment material. Forgive me if I ramble, I’m better at sorting my thoughts out while writing or talking… Read the rest of this entry »

After 4 days of not being allowed to cum without my permission, Boy Toy finally asked me if he could. Perhaps it had to do with the fact that he dreamed, last night? It took a while, but he’s getting where I want him to be. I’m quite impressed that it took as much as 4 days, considering that I’ve been teasing him mercilessly. Of course, I told him he can’t just yet. I’m thinking I might let him cum once, this weekend, but I’m not sure. Anybody has an opinion on this?

I slept at his place, last night, so maybe that worked in my favor to finally get him horny. I got a little angry with him because when I asked him how many cigarettes he had smoked that day, he got all bratty with me. I cornered him and reminded him that we have a contract, according to which I have control of his smoking, and I accused him of topping from the bottom, and it was left at that.

He felt bad about it, though. He didn’t show it at the time, but today he told me that my accusation made it into one of his dreams. Read the rest of this entry »

I’m such a nice girl. As you know, I’ve decided to take control of my Boy Toy’s orgasms for a while, and I forbid him to cum unless I give him permission. Well, since I’m a good Owner, and I feel a little bad being so harsh on him, I sent him a little “good morning” note, this morning. It simply said:

Hey Boy Toy,
 
I’m wearing a skirt to work, today.
 
Love ya, your Owner
xxx

Before pressing the “send” button, I took out the webcam and shot pictures up my skirt and I attached those to the email. Of course, I wasn’t wearing any undies. For some reason, he called me a tease. Humph!

But enough about my early morning silliness, and on to HNT business. This week, I decided to go back to those pictures taken during the photoshoot with a happy ending. And, as you can see, my selection was inspired by my early morning silliness. Happy HNT!

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Ok, yesterday I got sidetracked a little with some geeky web stuff, so now I owe you something sexy. Perhaps you’ve been wondering how Boy Toy reacted to the email I sent him Sunday, regarding my control of his orgasms?

Surprisingly, he went with it without a fight. Almost like it was something inevitable, and let’s just get on with it. He did ask for a favour in exchange, which I’ve granted. You see, we have a couple of rules for whenever I am staying over. Not many, really. You already know about our smoking arrangements. But there are two other things he must do when I sleep over: in the morning, he must stay naked until I get up, and when I do get up, he must make my coffee. He has a bit of a problem with the first of these two, because it prevents him from getting anything done until I get up and, well, Boy Toy is one of these people that must get things done. So when I told him he cannot have an orgasm unless I tell him he can, and that we’d “start” with one week, his response was “Ouch! One week eh? OK, but in exchange for… Sunday mornings, can I get dressed to do things around the house?” Read the rest of this entry »

The people at the FetMag.com, where I sometimes contribute articles, have been working hard on their new baby, FetSpank.com. Basically, FetSpank gathers kinky news and articles from all over the web, but it’s the members that submit the contents. The Fet Spank team says that “FetSpank is a place where Kinksters become Spanksters. This is where you come to discover, share and vote on the most popular fetish-focused Web content.”

This is a neat idea, I don’t think I’ve seen it elsewhere in the BDSM/Fetish online community. I mean, I’ve seen several sites that gather contents from all over, but this one adds the voting (spanking) feature, and being the democratic girl that I am, I like this idea! Besides who doesn’t like spanking others? There could very soon be a spanking epidemic in the kinky bloggosphere.

Now, I want you all to spank me when you enjoy what I write, so I’ll add a little FetSpankIt paddle to my posts. But seeing as this is still quite new, I figured I’d give it some explanation!

First of all, you can start by creating yourself an account on FetSpank. Once you’ve created your account, you can submit stories using the “Submit a story” button, located in the top right corner of the site. This is fairly easy, it’s pretty much the same as posting on a blog.

The other way to submit content is to add a FetSpank spanker directly to your posts on your own blog, as I’m about to do, and your readers will be able to vote for your post directly. Because that’s the fun deal with FetSpank, once a story is up there, readers can vote for it, or “spank” it. The top stories, meaning the ones with the most spanks, are shown in a column on the right of the site at all times.

So, if readers click on your little FetSpank spanker icon, what they’re doing, in reality, is either voting for your post, if it’s already up on FetSpank, or submitting it, if it wasn’t up there. It’s all done for you automatically. Cool uh?

If you wanna copy me and add a FetSpank spanker to your posts so that your readers can vote directly, just copy and paste the code below and make it appear at the bottom or top of your posts.

<a href=”javascript:q=(document.location.href);t=(document.title);void(open(’http://www.fetspank.com/submit?url=’+escape(q)+’&title=’+escape(t),”,’resizable,location,menubar,toolbar,scrollbars,status’));” title=”Submit to FetSpank.com” alt=”Submit to FetSpank.com”><img src=”http://www.fetspank.com/fetspankit.png” alt=”Submit to FetSpank.com” /></a>

You’ll get a pretty little spanker, which pleases both the girlie girl and the geek in me:

You an also choose to add a smaller spanker or add a Marklet to your browser’s bookmarks or toolbar, but I think I’ve been technical enough on you guys for a while… So for more details, go here: http://www.fetspank.com/node/127